In my three years as a computer engineer student, I have experienced the most amount of emotions just this year because of the overwhelming tasks that were presented to us.
I am a programmer by heart, and not an engineer, I realized this because there is a difference between an engineer and a programmer for me.
But I’ll consider this as a rite of passage through someone who is in college and the reason why is to actually prepare for the real world where it is much more unforgiving and can actually affect you in the future, and slowly, I am feeling this with every passing day as I reach my dreams of getting a degree and becoming a software engineer.
It feels like that, slowly, my expectations about myself keeps getting higher and higher as a student and as a member of society that will contribute to the future of humanity.
Will I succeed on this career? Will I actually graduate in the first place? These were one of the few questions that haunt me every night as a student in between graduation.
Will I graduate as good computer engineer? Will I use the concepts that our computer engineer program taught us or showed us?
All of these really affected my mental health and I am currently recovering as the first semester has ended, My goal for this semestral break is to be a better student and programmer at the same time.
I’ll be learning about to get on how to get better at learning especially concepts since I was too focused on learning practically that I forgot as a college student that I will also have to learn some important concepts where there won’t be any programming or anything practical involved.
My performance for this semester hasn’t been the best and I got really bad grades, I want to be more consistent now and make myself proud and be better overall, cheers to this year and let this be the best year that I will experience!
College life is difficult since you are broke and you can’t do much or maybe that is just me, but for me as a computer engineering student who is at best average level.
I am not that fond of getting a part time job at the moment since I want to be able to be organized first and use my time better so I can be successful in both education and as a programmer.